8

Today's date marks the 8th anniversary of our relationship together. I'm not bouncing off the walls at excitement, but I feel as if my face is lit by a secret smile and there's a warm glow of contentment just thinking about what we've been through together. It isn't a super dramatic soap opera, but whatever we've faced has only served to strengthen our relationship as a couple.

I was hesitant to get together with N initially, since he's my first and all. But somehow things fell into place and I realised that I was starting to like him a lot. So much that I thought to myself, 'Hey maybe things CAN work out.' But that was before he officially and nervously asked me whether 'he could take care of me.' *blush* So anyhow there was the innocent dating thing, bringing me out to pulau ubin for cycling trips, having lunch after school, sending me back home with the long bus journeys before we got serious.

I realised I was comfortable with him and we could talk just about anything and most importantly, he already LIKED me and wanted to develop a you-and-me to an 'us'. lol. So it was a smooth transition to getting together, but of course I'm not going to ignore the fact that I was REALLY NERVOUS about it!

Naturally the first few years had quite a few ups and downs. I had to know what it's like playing the role of a girlfriend, being a lover and a confidant, getting acquainted with his family, keeping up with my studies and not daydream too much. Hahaha. We quarrelled quite a bit, with plenty of cold wars but from there we learnt about our characters and learnt to communicate better with each other. I was also developing a sense of self-awareness, like I had to explain "WHY I was angry" even if I didn't know why I was pissed off in the first place :P

I'm fortunate that N was and still is! very serious about us and not like the other boys I heard about. *shudder*

I really appreciate his thoughtful comments whenever I confide in him, and always giving it his all in order to make me happy, though sometimes with unintended results. :P

I guess there's no one definition for love. It's rather hard to describe it in a sentence or even a paragraph. It's just a warm fuzzy feeling that makes you feel on top of the world and that's the way I feel about N till now. :)

Happy anniversay N, I'll see u in a bit! :D