confessions...

had baptism class today.. the last one before we have our Power Encounter Weekend at Gallery Hotel..

Seems like the PEW is like a big thing, and we were given a 5 page survey form to know our Christian history a bit better. We just basically had to tick alongside some questions. Some were extremely personal, some where quite cute in the sense that i never thought they'd affect my Christian life, like yoga, foot reflexology, acupuncture - typical Asian / Chinese customs that I'd never thought that MAY be considered dangerous.

Other questions were physical / emotional traits - anger, irritability, impatience, etc. Others were 'how you feel about your parent / sibling ....', medical history.. etc..

So it was quite a comprehensive list to check, and though each of us were given a pseudonym, I could see quite clearly that my name had been 'blanko-ed' out beside it! Means hor.. if anyone scrutinises my list and notices my name that was originally there hor.. then then scratches the dried liquidpaper hor.. or bring the paper to light to see the ink indentation... it's very embarrassing -_-"""

Anyway the purpose of the survey is so that the counsellor attached to me during the PEW session would be able to so-called purify me during the sessions. While I was extremely honest, one guy in my class absolutely refused to put down all his 'sins' and asked whether that were possible.

I of course wouldn't know his reasons for doing that, but when I turned to the Bible to Matthew 5:5 - 8 ( "Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. Blessed are thoses who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.") I just wondered why he was so fascinated with self-ministry ( i can't exactly remember what the pastor used. it's something like self cleansing).

His basic point was that his secrets would be revealed to SOMEONE other than God, and he's extremely uncomfortable doing so, and would rather face the challenges alone without the help of a counsellor as an intercessor.

Oh well. Anyway I realised this guy ( I shan't reveal his name) was really particular about the way people tell him things. He'd pick their words apart and grill them for any discrapencies or vagueness in their language or the sentence itself. Haiyoh.

And the worst part is that he asks the SAME question over and over again. hahahaha..Practically everyone in the class who's heard him as questions before either grimaces / smiles politely whenever he opens his mouth.. heehee.. well better ask than not at all i guess :P

While I am excited about PEW and getting baptised, i do get the jitters of what is to happen. I just pray that I'll get a counsellor that I'll be able to relate or feel approachable towards and all will be good. Looking forward to whatever's gg to happen to me during PEW, be it feeling the hand of God or be able to speak in tongues (finally!) or i dunno. Anything could happen. But it'll be good I'm for sure :D I just hope I don't fart accidentally. hehehehee..

Ok...I'm just waiting for N's call that he's safely back from Aur. I rejected a call on my handphone just now as I was asleep. I thought that might have been the alarm clock!! zzzzz.
Till later when N probably posts abt his dive trip~