compelled

I feel like yet another overwhelming moment again, where I feel like bursting and telling the entire world about my thoughts.

It suddenly dawned upon me, more clearly and stronger than ever before about my existence here on Earth. My mission here is to do nothing but the works for God and I WANT to do it. This doesn't mean that I'd definitely be in missions or work in a church, or the stereotypical evangelistic stuff. No. This means working for God in the everyday aspect of my life. Whichever field of work I'm engaged in, the people that I'd meet, the experiences I'd encounter, I want to be a testimony for God and touching the lives of many people. Amen!

I really want to win people over for Christ and let them develop a deeper relationship with Him. I don't want a superficial understanding of God, I want people to enjoy the relationship that I share with Him. I don't want a kind of relationship where despite knowing who God is, one continually and consciously sins against Him. I don't deny some sins are harder to overcome or even to detect, but once we decide to embark on a closer journey with Jesus, all things will be revealed in good time. The relationship that I share with God is one that is loving, kind, peaceful, understanding and respectful, and not one that is full of fear, guilt and anger that many people may have a misunderstanding of.

Many think God is an angry God, when in fact, much of the fear and guilt from our mistakes arises in us, and the delusion that God will remain angry with us forever. While God forgives us of our sins even before we commit them, we are often harsh on ourselves, refusing to forgive ourselves and running away from God in the process, which makes Him so sad! God looks only looks at our hearts, our motives and not our actions (that may be contradictory to what we really feel). When we are truly repentant, God's love and forgiveness absolutely overflows. Well, it might seem so textbook, but that's what I've experienced many times over and it remains a mystery to me how His Love is so powerful and incomprehensible, and yet I love it!

I thank God for giving me so many opportunities in life, and blessing me with so many gifts, talents and skills, so much more than I could ever ask for. Most importantly, I really thank God for drawing me back to Him so closely once again. I love you Lord, and I pray that many more will learn to love You too. Amen.

-C-